How I Live & Cope with Seasonal Affective Disorder

Natalie Nicole is representing a picture of herself as Seasonal Affective Disorder
This is what seasonal affective disorder looks like.

Seasonal depression, also known as seasonal affective disorder or “winter blues”, is a period of time when people do not feel like their normal selves. It is a particular disorder that is a subtype of depression or bipolar disorder. Seasonal depression (SAD) usually occurs because of a change in the seasons. Most symptoms normally start in the late fall or the early winter months. These months are associated with daylight savings time which means less sunlight. Less sunlight may reduce an individual’s serotonin levels which is a neurotransmitter that helps regulate mood. Research has shown that lower levels of serotonin have been correlated with depression. For most cases, seasonal affective disordersymptoms go away in the spring and or summer. However, some people may begin not feeling like themselves when spring or summer arrives. Those individuals experience summer-pattern SAD which is actually less common.

My Experience with Seasonal Depression

Personally my seasonal affective disorder creeps into my life during the first and or second week of November. I experience insomnia more often. I usually cannot get to sleep until a little past 3 am. As a result, I become less driven to get up out of bed in the mornings, especially when the days are overcast. I wake-up slightly irritated when I finally do crawl out of the bed. However, some mornings are better than others when the sun shines through the windows. I can be a bit lethargic and find it hard to get motivated.

Some days I am a hard book to read but for the sake of my kids, do my best to cover it up. My husband knows when I am draped in depression. He does everything to help me so I can care for myself and our kids. Yet, sometimes the load can be overwhelming. As a newbie content creator, influencer, blogger, I have an extensive list of to do’s. That list can make me overwhelmed. Thus making it hard for me to handle stress. The stress eases up after a good cry which I experience just about every other day. That good cry comes between 2-3pm. That is when my mood takes a turn.

By the afternoon, I am full of energy and feel as if I can conquer the remainder of my day. The feelings from earlier in the day do a 180 degree turn. A manic rush comes over me. I push to complete a major amount of task from my to-do list. The self-esteem that I did not have from earlier fills me. At times, I may add more task on my list for the evening to prove to myself that I can handle the stress. My energy level goes up to a level that concerns me in my thought pattern.

My husband gets concerned as well and usually tells me take a breather so I don’t go overboard. If I do go overboard, I have another crying spell for about 20 minutes. Thankfully I my husband and a friend I can call on when things reach that level! I engage in much needed self-care after my children fall asleep. My mood is regulated and I feel like my normal self.

My Symptoms of Seasonal Affective Disorder

Symptoms of seasonal affective disorder resemble those of other types of depression. At times it can be hard to determine if a person is experiencing seasonal affective disorder or another type of depression. Personally, I experience a variety of symptoms outside of my normal depression. First and foremost, the extreme changes in my mood make me aware that I have seasonal affective disorder. I also experience insomnia, hopelessness, agitation, and increased anxiety from stress. The symptoms I experience fall in line with those found on numerous mental health medical sites. Every person who experiences seasonal affective disorder, may have similar or different symptoms. Symptoms range from mild to severe.

My Treatments for Seasonal Affective Disorder

When seasonal affective disorder is diagnosed early, treatment and coping skills can have major benefits. I was first diagnosed with SAD in November 2019. It was no surprise to me when I found out that the change of the season would affect my depression and anxiety more. Having experienced PPD after two earth-side births, it was to be expected. Personally, the forms of treatment I use are antidepressant medication, talk therapy, and vitamin D. I specifically take the medication Prozac. I talk to my therapist twice a week during the SAD months. In addition, I have taken on new coping skills for the upcoming months. I have started journaling with prompts, taking a drive for 60 minutes to a new location, crying to release the depression, and meditating. Just as symptoms vary, treatments vary depending on the severity of symptoms.

My look after a surprising talk therapy session.
A Message of Support to Others Coping with Seasonal Affective Disorder

For anyone who may be experiencing SAD, know that you are not alone in it. I am another soul managing SAD in this huge world. For anyone who may think they are experiencing SAD, reach out to a medical professional. There are effective forms of treatment for the symptoms you may be experiencing. Nonetheless, I am proof that you can stay the course. When the world feels like it may be crumbling underneath my feet, I take on the strength God gives me to press forward.

I imagine a positive outlook for those days. Even when the world feels like a manic dream, I take on the strength God gives me to press forward. I imagine a calm and beautiful outlook for those days. During the months when I experience seasonal effective disorder, I know that the good days outweigh the bad days. I know that the treatments I use allow me to experience more good days. For in the midst of the unbearable lows and the extreme highs, I know that this too shall pass. I hope the same for you, SAD or not.


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8 thoughts on “How I Live & Cope with Seasonal Affective Disorder

  1. Thank you so much for sharing! I remember my doctors in Seattle telling us we all needed to take it because they barely get sun anyway and when the time changes it really takes a toll on people.

    1. Thanks so much for reading Venice! I have not been to Seattle but I for sure know that the sun doesn’t shine well over there.

  2. Wow, Natalie this was very informative and truly allowed me to understand who they arrived at the diagnosis. Thank you so much for your transparency and willingness to share your story with all of us. I’ll be praying with and for you as you continue along this journey. The one thing that I do know is that mental illness is typically shunned in our communities and that should not be the case.

    1. Thanks so much Kangelia for reading about my mental wellness journey! I love being transparent about my journey because it provides even more healing! Your prayers are appreciated more than you know! Mental illness is not a joke and more black women and men should not be afraid to discuss it.

  3. Wow I knew this was a thing but not to this extent . I love how you gave us some science behind it and your personal experience in how it affects your daily life . I think this is more comment than we think.

    1. Yes Seasonal Affective Disorder is a real thing that causes some serious issues for some. I am thankful that I have a support system in these crazy times. I am honored to be able to tell my story in hopes to reach another.

    1. Thanks so much for reading! I sincerely appreciate the support from you! My husband is a Godsend! He eases so many things for me. I am forever grateful!